Confidence Rant

•August 18, 2017 • Leave a Comment

This is just a record to remember these thoughts. I haven’t really thought it all through. Writing on the fly.

So, I was looking over my old resumes today, trying to tweak one for a job application. I realized/remembered that I have many skills and experiences. These have all been gifts from God to me. I am an experienced vocalist. I have many years of experience in child and adult care. I have a respected degree (an achievement that required relentlessly tackling several difficult tasks and experiences). I have been the president of an organization. I have traveled overseas. I understand children. I have polished speaking and writing skills. I have been exposed to sign language, various types of music, dance, poetry, literature, drama, electronic media. I have been well-fed, well-dressed, loved, cherished, prayed for, educated, protected, introduced to Christ, given forgiveness and eternal life, trained up in the way I should go, etc.

Why do I lack confidence? Why do I act like I don’t have enough for the task? What am I waiting for?

Additionally, why do I give in to the idea that “no one has my back”? Where did that belief come from? Why do I continue to doubt that God will be enough, that He is my “safety net”?

I have been equipped. I have access to a God who is enough. When will I start believing that and acting on it?

I would do well to consider this prayerfully. There is a disconnect between reality and my level of confidence. I want to know what it is. I want to battle it. I will need God’s help and I will need the prayers of God’s people.



Clear My Mind

•June 29, 2017 • Leave a Comment

So. It turns out that I am glad about this small, funky blog. It is encouraging to look back at the few posts on my list.

Maybe it will help me to write something today. Perhaps if I get a few things out in writing then my mind will be more focused. Without further ado then, these are the “knick knacks” lining the shelves of my brain. 🙂

Summer 2017…
I am working part-time, considering my future, concerned about my income and my need to pay for an expensive dental procedure, exploring new relationships at church, wishing for some direction, daydreaming about having a romantic relationship, remembering my challenges and areas that need growth, considering my age and progress in life, listening to and watching the planning for my only sister’s wedding, and needing to take time to pray and praise God for His faithfulness.

*Remember to count your blessings, if you take time to see where God has been with you in the past, you will have encouragement to face the future.

*Stop telling your God how big your worries are and start telling your worries how big your God is. You will only know how big He is if you spend time getting to know Him. It can help to be in the Word and see what big things He does for others.

*Let God tell you what you are capable of. You can see this in the life of Moses, where God telsl Moses what He will accomplish through him. He also equips Moses to do these things and works with him as an individual. (Bob Pickering)

*Starve your sins, feed your faith.
Psalm 119:37 “Turn my eyes from worthless things…”

*Meditate on Psalm 119

*I have asked God not to give me a mate until I am in such a place with Him that the mate will be blessed by my faith and also not a replacement for my relationship with God. This may make me lonely for a while. I have only recently started to wonder if God has a mate for me. I think it has to do with my sister getting married and the fact that I will still be at home, after she has gone.

There is a song that rang true for me in this area “That’s What The Lonely Is For” by Glad.

*What will life be like after my sister has gone? What will the house be like? What will happen with my parents and myself? This should be a place of prayer and thankfulness rather than fear.

*The little moments and the people God has put in my life. Tuesday morning Bible study kids, my goddaughter, Jacob, my childcare kiddos, the fun people at my young adults Bible study, the moments of laughter and blessing, the funny things that children and adults say. Serving at Pinecove again. Sharing my testimony. Minnie the dog. 🙂 Hearing and seeing Jacob and his siblings discuss scriptural topics with their parents and grandparents, and to hear them do so respectfully and from the Word–what a blessing!! I could not believe it!!

*Bring your desires to the Lord and ask Him what He wants to do with them. (Sonia)

Enough typing and musing for now. Time to talk to God, dance in my room, and finish out this day.

Matthew 6: 25-34 NLT

“That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”


Dance…Praise Dance? Anyone???

•March 17, 2015 • Leave a Comment

So,  I wish I could dance really well.  Then I could take my desire to see beautifully crafted messages come out through music and movement and bring them to fruition.  Even if the music was just for expressing praise–that’s pretty awesome.  Especially for a dancer.  Wish some of my dancing friends desired to use dance this way.  I would be throwing songs their way all the time.  And watching the beauty that would unfold.

Does anyone want to sign up and choreograph/dance songs of my request???  Anyone???

Sigh.  Maybe someday 🙂

This is a place to write down dreams and musings I guess. 🙂


Giving My Heart

•May 3, 2014 • Leave a Comment

This song is how I want to be regarding a Romantic Relationship. I don’t want to be in a “nowhere” relationship. 🙂


“When I Fall In Love” performed by Linda Ronstadt. Not my property, just wanted to share my thoughts through song.

2013 Recap

•January 17, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Just browsing down my facebook and I thought I would do a little remembering.  For myself and as a testament to the Lord’s love, care, and faithfulness.

2013 In A Glance:

-Mom is allowed rehab at VA and not put into a live-in situation at the CLC

-I turn 27…another year of life. Thank You Lord! 🙂

-I am invited to my first pro basketball game

-I make some new choir friends and revisit some waning friendships

-I have a few private dance parties in my room 🙂

-I am given opportunities to be used as a blessing in the lives of others (time or resources)

-I am given a job in my field and I learn a lot while I’m there

-I remember how good it feels to be challenged and to learn

-I lose my job and that is a learning experience too (it also shows me that I have blessed with people that support me in my life)

-I get my wisdom teeth out.  Thank You Lord for providing here!!

-I get to see Celtic Woman in concert 🙂  It is blessing cause it’s freeeee 🙂

-I sit on a jury for a murder case and the Lord gives me grace to make it through

-I get to visit my family in another state and my family’s health has improved (Thank You Lord!!!)

-I get to know a friend from church and she helps me with work brainstorming

-I am blessed by the Lord to have friends who pray for me and I learn to pray for them too

-I am blessed to be part of a dear friend’s wedding 🙂

-Was part of a Christmas musical 🙂

-Went roller skating again 🙂

-Was blessed to do work I love for a family I love

-Laughed multiple times 🙂

The end.




Just In Case…

•January 17, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I sometimes put things on this blog that I want to remember or to share–but at the same time keep to myself, because I never tell anyone about this page 🙂

So here’s one…think I might like this on my gravestone “Nothing in my hands I bring, simply to Your cross I cling”.

It reminds me of a quote from one of my favorite books, The Hiding Place, by Corrie Ten Boom.  In this quote, Corrie’s aunt (Tante Jans) is being told that she doesn’t have long to live and this is her response:

“My dear sister-in-law,” Father began gently, “there is a joyous journey which each of God’s children sooner or later sets out on. And, Jans, some must go to their Father empty- handed, but you will run to Him with hands full!”

“All your clubs…,” Tante Anna ventured.

“Your writings…,” Mama added.

“The funds you’ve raised…,” said Betsie.

“Your talks…,” I began.

But our well-meant words were useless. In front of us the proud face crumpled; Tante Jans put her hands over her eyes and began to cry. “Empty, empty!” she choked at last through her tears. “How can we bring anything to God? What does He care for our little tricks and trinkets?”

And then as we listened in disbelief, she lowered her hands and with tears still coursing down her face whispered, “Dear Jesus, I thank You that we must come with empty hands. I thank You that You have done all – all – on the Cross, and that all we need in life or death is to be sure of this”  (pg. 39).

I will not tell you that I always think this way, even though I wish I would.  But sometimes… whenever the Lord leads me to it, I have to admit He is all the hope I have…and He is.

The end 🙂

Moses and other jazz…

•November 5, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Enjoyed reading/listening to the books of Moses in the Bible. Want to remember a couple of verses that stuck out to me I was going through this part of the Bible. Some are not from that section but have the same message. The Lord is amazing, and though I may not always remember that…here are some verses that prove it

Psalm 96:5 “For all the gods of the nations are idols, but the L-RD made the heavens”. (NIV)

Deuteronomy 32:39 “Look now; I myself am he! There is no other god but me! I am the one who kills and gives life; I am the one who wounds and heals; no one can be rescued from my powerful hand!” (NLT)

Deuteronomy 33:26-29 Beautiful! Part mentioned here…

“How blessed you are, O Israel! Who else is like you, a people saved by the L-RD?”


“How sweet Your words taste to me; they are sweeter than honey.” Psalm 119:103 NLT